Rollercoaster....

I never realized what a rollercoaster of emotions dating can be. I have been seeing this guy for almost a month now and while it is going really well, its so confusing and wonderful and frustrating all at the same time! haha. Anyway since I am sure you are all curious, we met at work, yes it is the same guy I discussed earlier, apparently that is just his natural self, he doesn't mean to be flirty thats just how he is, I called him on it and yeah he didn't even realize. He really is an amazing guy, and I love being around him. We have so much fun together and I love the beginnings of relationships, the playful banter, the firsts of everything, its just fun! But then there are the other dips and valleys of this roller coaster, like the uncertainty of everything, that I am not a big fan of. Sometimes it is so hard just to know what to expect or what to think, especially since I am a major worrier and overthink just about everything! lol. I don't know, when I'm not with him, I miss him, I just miss being around him and its exciting and fun and terrifying all at the same time. I don't know what is going to happen when I go back to school and head back to Watertown but I am hopeful and excited for whatever the future brings. Just thought that you guys would like an update on whats going on here in Aberdeen, really that is about as exciting as it gets around here, which for me is pretty exciting. haha Anyway hope all of your summers are going well and having fun, for some of you I will be seeing you in a couple weeks for camp! major excited for pethat although somewhat scared as well because I think I am going to be the camp nurse but it should be fun and I am sure everything will go off without a hitch. Not sure how many people actually check this thing anymore since I rarely ever blog but to those of you who do, hope your summers are going well and families are doing good, miss ya, love ya!

The Market...

So to many of you who read this post, okay probably all, the market to you may be the grocery store, but for us single women out here to me the market to me refers to the market of single men and let me tell ya the selection is poor! I have recently come to the conclusion that men are so extroardinarly different from women that it is sometimes hard to believe we can co-exist at all! Take for example the male species does not seem to realize that there are boundaries to how far one should flirt, simple flirting is okay for friends, co-workers etc but this does not involve touching, seeking you out for talking, joking with you, talking about getting together to cook you a freaking cheeseburger! this does not constitute simple flirting, this has jumped another step to flirting when you are actually INTERESTED in someone. I do not think men understand this, how very frustrating it can be for us single women who are torn between wondering does he like me, is he interested or is this just another big ol' game we play in the land of single people. I am so ready to be off the singles market, it really is not a fun place to be, the hem and hawing of wonder and worry. I know I have posted about this single drudgery before and this really isn't to prod at that again because I think i have beat that dog to death, no sense in rehasing it again, this post is mainly to enlighten everyone (which you probably don't need enlightenment you have probably all been there before) that men need to get a clue! lol, hope everyones summers are going well, miss everyone, love you all!

UGGHHHH!!!!

Well for those of you who are interested I am surviving Aberdeen although at this moment I wish I was anywhere else but here. I am so mad. My new bike which my good friends who were good enough to pick up for me in Sioux Falls has already suffered damage due to two cousins who don't know how to keep their hands to their own stuff and thought it would be fun to do tricks on my new bike! So needless to say I am quite ticked off right now, not that it is even that big of a deal but my brakes are now squeeky, yay. Before tonight they were perfectly fine and my bike was a smooth riding, beautiful machine and I have ridden almost every day without fail because I really do love it. Not that it will prevent me from riding it but now I will get that lovely irritating noise of "sqqquuuueeeeeaaaakkkk." Sorry thats really all I have to say, i just needed to vent, I promise I will write more about what life is really like as soon as I get past the red haze in front of my eyes called anger. Love you all, miss ya

Steal My Heart

Some of you may not know this but I decided to move to Aberdeen for the summer to work here and stay with my aunt and just kind of get away from everything and have a relaxing summer. Anyway my last Sunday at church I told miss Chloe Jane that I wouldn't be around this summer because I was going to be living somewhere else and she proceeded to tell me "I am going to miss you tomorrow" (tomorrrow because that was the day I was leaving. Anyway my good friends Kristi and Cindy were also less than pleased with me that I was going to be gone the WHOLE summer with really no plans to make trips home. Anyway just before I was heading into training for my new summer job I quick checked my phone messages and this is the message I received:

Um...Jenny...this is Chloe.

When are you going to come back?...

Jenny?... um, when you get back will

you come to our house?.. bye....

I love you, bye.

As you can imagine my heart immediately soared and it made my day. Shortly thereafter though I had to email Cindy and tell her that she played dirty, using a little girl like that to guilt me into coming home, haha. Cindy promptly told me she had nothing to do with it and that was all Chloe's idea. How adorable! I love that kid!! haha. This little girl is the sweetest little thing and I count it such a blessing that I have been able to be in her life, as well as all her siblings and cousins but Ms. Chloe Jane truly does hold a special place in my heart. Needless to say I think that message will remain on my phone for all eternity, haha, I have already been making people listen to it!

Woo Hoo Orlando here I come!!! (again)

So me and my cuz have just finished booking ourselves a vacation to Orlando, FL! She has never been there and I of course have been there a few times... haha... Anyway we got a GREAT deal on this little vacation. Our flights were 223, we are getting our hotel for four nights and it is only going to cost us about 100 bucks for the entire week because she works at a hotel reservation company (where I am working this summer) and we get excellent deals on hotels! Plus we are going to my favorite place on earth, DISNEY WORLD! for a day and then to this sweet killer water park one day called wet n' wild, and believe you me it looks amazingly fun!!! In addition to this we are taking a day trip to Daytona beach which is causing us about 25 dollars round trip to take a bus there for the day, it is going to be amazing! So we are getting a round trip flight, four nights in a Ramada hotel, a day at disney world, a day at the water park, a day trip to daytona beach all for only about 450 dollars! plus food but still i am totally pumped! Just thought i would let you all in on my vacation plans, its not until July, which means it is going to be a scorcher but yeah...it will be amazing nonetheless! :D

Who I really am...

Pastor Steve's message today realely convicted me, and I have to say I have been feeling that way for awhile...just knowing that I have not been doing my part, haven't been reading my Bible, haven't been praying, have just been the biggest BUM! Well I finally remedied my not reading my Bible and have been going good for about a week straight now...I need to really take a class though in getting the deeper meaning out of reading, I just don't feel as connected as I would like to...anyway back to the intention of this post....Pastor Steve's message just really got me thinking...who am i really? Am I the person that you see at church or is that just a facade? I don't like to think so, I would like to think that I really am as nice and cheerful as I seem (no I really am not trying to pump myself up but bare with me plase lol) The thing is is that I know that I work harder when I am at church to come across like the happy go lucky person that I think people see me as...and that is the person I want to be, the person I aim to be but is that the real me? I know that when I am with my mom or some of my other family I can come across as the biggest butt head that you wouldn't even think I was the same person and you would think my evil twin just entered the room and took over my body or something! And I don't know why I do that and each time I lash out I am immediately convicted and the Lord says to me why...why do you treat your mother this way and I feel awful! but that stupid pride of mine just doesn't want to give in and say mom i'm sorry for being a butthead...I don't want to be that person...and I have really been trying to improve upon that aspect of my personality because I don't like it in myself. So who am I really? When God looks to my heart is he pleased with what he sees? Does He see promise there or is he disgusted with me as he was with the Isrealites who refused to step out in faith and just believe? I want to be the christian that He has planned for me and I want to receive the blessings the Lord has planned for me but how can I do that if I don't spend time with him and if I don't set my heart right with God? I don't want to be imprisoned anymore by selfishness and pridefullness, I just pray that the Lord sees me through and gives me the strength and spirit to be the person he has planned.
(The above is just an exampe of the prison I have allowed myself to be in. Haha...actually this was taken before the end of school last year but I thought it was a fitting photo)

Remarkable People

We all have them, the people who have touched our lives and hearts in ways that we can never repay. For me there have been several: my mom, my grandma, my aunts, my best friend. I am sure the list for yourselves is just as great. There are two people in my life though that I feel I owe a great debt of gratitude for. Please beware this may be a tad mushy, for those of you who go into shock with great sentiments you may want to stear clear. Anyway I guess I should maybe start with a story. I was born into a catholic family, went to CCD all throughout elementary and high school and was confirmed as a Catholic but never really felt a deep connection with God, never really knew that to get into heaven you had to accept Jesus as your savior. Now I always believed in God, always believed in Jesus but just really didn't have some of the necessary basics down. Throughout this period of time though I had the fortune of meeting some amazing people, the Grantham's, who I ended up babysitting for since Brody was about one so yeah its been a long time! Anyway to make a very long story short after my grandma died I was really lost, searching, wondering, sad and missing her a lot. That is when Cindy asked me to go with them to Disney World with all of her family plus all of her brothers and sister's families as well. Needless to say that was an amazing trip (so fun!) and I was able to really connect with more members of Cindy's family. That summer I ended up babysitting for Kristi all summer and all through that next year as I decided I couldn't go back to Aberdeen after my grandma had died and needed to just kind of take a year to decide where I wanted to be. Anyway through all of this process I got a lot closer with both Cindy and Kristi and got to know them more as people, what they were about, what they believed, the strong sense of faith they have and it all just overwhelmed me and made me want to be more like that, happier, more loving and caring, just a better person. In about January of that year I went with Cindy and Wesley to Financial Peace which was the starting point of me finally coming to church and accepting Jesus as my savior. Now you may think that is the gist of this story, but unfortunately (since I know this is going really long, sorry bout that) that is not really what I wanted to talk about, I just had to get the background info out of the way. Through all of this amazing journey Kristi and Cindy have been there for me more than I can ever repay. I have never really had a strong christian example other than my grandma and even she practiced her faith in a different way, didn't read her Bible but had a very strong faith in God and Jesus. Cindy and Kristi have pushed me to be a better person and a better christian and I am eternally grateful that they took a chance on me, trusting me with their children and loving me even though I didn't know Jesus. To some of you this post may seem unnecessary and overdone but I think that we need to tell the people who have helped us beyond measure that theyve done so, because otherwise they may never know. They have always been there to answer my questions, ease my fears and push me to be stronger and do better. Thanks guys for always believing in me and loving me through it all, you guys are the best! (okay mush is over, thanks to those of you who pushed through!!! :D lol)