Alone or just Lonely?

Okay so most days I am pretty content with who I am, where I am in my life and what I have...but some days I am just down...not in like I am so depressed and can't imagine my life ever getting better kind of depressed but just lonely down. I love going to church because I love being surrounded by the people and feeling God's presence in every turn and the sound of Worship and children learning about Jesus, it is amazing. I love seeing the families together, making plans with other families to go out to dinner or make a play date, a sleepover or some other fun and exciting thing that children and families plan together. But there is a part of me that is so envious of that....wishing that I had a place in that part of life! I don't mean to sound that I am not completely grateful for all the blessings I have in my life because I so am....but some days are really hard for me. It is hard to sit and wonder when, who, how, where am I finally going to meet that special guy, the one I get to start my own family with...I so look forward to that day, sometimes it totally consumes my thoughts and feelings and I get way overwhelmed until God sets me in place and says love ME first, think about ME first and THEN he will come. I have complete faith in the promises the Lord makes and I know that someday it will happen but it is just days like today when I get really impatient to make those plans myself to have playdates and make plans for dinner and sleepovers and all the other wonderful things that go along with parenting and having a family. Don't get me wrong, I am not completely delusional to the fact that its not all sunshine and roses, I have babysit enough to know its not like that all the time, and that there are a lot of hard times too...i have been through enough of them with my own family, but the promise of that security and love is really.....amazing.